Sunday, March 1, 2009
Im so sorry. i really am. i should not have tried to help. you didnt need my assistance, you just needed my support. i should'nt have tried to force my decisions on you.
i thought what i was doing would make you happy. it would stop your tears from rolling down your cheeks. little did i know that the reverse happened. i thought that you were just stubborn to accept the truth. i was wrong. so wrong. and when you looked at me that way, after i uttered those words, my heart simply broke. and for that moment i hated myself more than anyone else for causing you hurt.
i just wanted to help. i just thought you might be happier without him in your life. the truth is, he is your life. and i grossly misunderstood.how did i not see the pain in your eyes? how i did not feel the fire in your heart? why didnt understand?
why?
why?
why?
i guess in my defence, all i can say is that i wanted to help. honestly. but after seeing the way you looked and behaved, so broken, i only want you to be happy and whole again. so i will stop advising you, or anyone else for that matter. because i am guilty of making you cry, for causing you hurt and i will always be guitly. i just wanted you to be happy,thats why i said those things.
i am so useless. i cant help you when you needed me most,instead i just caused you more pain and tears.
never again i promise. from now on you just do what makes you happy,and i promise you will have my undivided support. just dont cry again infront of me and make me feel helpless and guilty because im a part of those tears as well.
im really sorry. please forgive me. please.
Darmuis blogged at 4:14 PM
